September, October and November could well be the most important months of the year for our family. Halle's birthday is September 26, Elliott's birthday is October 13, Halle joined our family on November 20, and my Dad passed away on November 25. Then we have Thanksgiving and Christmas. Ironically, I love these months. Through all the heartache. I feel joy. Sometimes, I need to choose to feel it, but...it's always there. Would I change the path of the journey I've been on? Absolutely not. Would I change the outcome? Yes. I would love nothing more than to have my Dad here to see Halle and spend time with her. To pray me through the loss of Elliott. I would love to be hugging my son, playing cars with him and teaching him to throw a ball. To see if he has red hair or brown eyes. To see if he looks just like his Daddy. Tomorrow we'll celebrate Elliott's second birthday without him here with us. We are choosing to celebrate his life. And more importantly, our Jesus and HIS Faithfulness.
I will sing to the maker of heaven and earth. God you reign forever and your love will endure. Faithful and true is the name of the Lord. You are FAITHFUL God!