Birthdays...

It was my birthday yesterday. I turned 35....that number doesn't really bother me. I don't feel like I'm that age but, I was crabby yesterday. It didn't feel like my birthday.....I missed my Dad and some family friends that have had one death after another in their family were losing yet someone else. I also didn't want to be at work. Well....not at 6am anyway....Aaron and I had gone out on Saturday night for our birthday's...his is April 5. I was so excited to be out with my husband, but...our plan to eat at "The Olive Garden" was thwarted by a long wait...thirty minutes was too much for us and it was already 6:30pm. We ended up at "Red Robin" instead...I love that place, but...it wasn't what I had in mind. I tried to be happy, happy, happy yesterday, but...it just wasn't happening and frankly, I wasn't turning 3 or something....I'm an adult, right? I'm struggling a bit with these feelings. I'm very thankful God gave me this birthday...and that I get to spend it with my family. BUT...birthdays were always a HUGE thing growing up at home. Birthdays for my husband were NOT a huge thing. So, where do you draw the line, where do you compromise? It is important for me to note that I did receive a BEAUTIFUL large bouquet of flowers from my husband the day before my birthday, he got me (well, kinda us) a Kitchen-Aid Food Processor and yesterday he brought me my new favorite scent from Victoria's Secret "Coconut Passion"...shower gel and lotion...ahhh nice! Just some food for thought...and something I need to work through.....any ideas??